How Many Times?

"There's a friend that I once knew and before his days were through, he was dark and stormy but he could laugh at all the world. I loved and took it all in stride and though I laughed on the outside, I'd give my life to take the loneliness that he had to endure ... How many times? How many times did I get to see my friend alive and think nothing of it? How many times? How many times did I look upon his face, how many times? And though he's gone now, I have this song now. And I still get to sit here, remembering the lines. And though I'm not yet under, I can't help but wonder: will I get this chance again and how many times?


There's a simple understanding in the moments undemanding of our notice. Years build up from months and days until we're suddenly afraid of what we've chosen. Have I done all that I can? Could I have been a better man? I need to do more with these moments, need to do more with less time..."
Ryan Montbleau

Vision Is Not Enough

Life is good here in Rochester NY. I haven't left yet, or even had any great adventures since returning home from the trail. Just brief travels and small pleasures. It was quite what I needed though. To be home. Near family and friends. Work a mundane desk job. Get into a "normal" routine. All this has been a good thing. Because it reminds me how much I hate normalcy. Complacency. Mediocrity. Because now I'm ready to crack the shell. Do something a little more challenging. Attend to my curiosity.

So, what's next? Not exactly sure. But I'm always thinking and scheming. Written on my bathroom mirror is "Vision is not enough. It must be combined with venture." (Vaclav Havel). Just a little reminder that, although planning is good, it can't be all there is. I know when the time is right, I'll make my move. In the meantime, I'll be getting ready for the next thing.